Welcome Message

Jeff Richards here. I created this blog for Titanya so you would have one place to view updates regarding her recent very serious medical condition and where you could add your comments if you wish to do so. I know Titanya will add some of her own comments to the blog, but for right now; I am adding her dictated comments and some of my own, plus have posted the comments already written by David Feinstein that many of you may have received already.

Titanya is now out of the hospital and working hard to recover from the past five weeks of this stressful situation. She is still very weak and who knows when she will even have the energy to view her blog or see your comments, but she eventually will.

She still requests that the BEST way to send your wishes is to send her a card to her home:

Titanya Dahlin
1009 Tinkerbell Ave.
Big Bear City, California 92314

I do know she also doesn't want you to panic and worry about her. Instead, send the positive energy that will continue to dissipate her blood clots and hold the confidence that I do; that she will be back to her old vibrant self soon.

Thank you so much and if you feel the need to talk; you can reach me, preferably by phone at (909) 534-1314.

Jeff Richards
March 25, 2009

Posting Comments to the Blog

Due to technical difficulty with Titanya's blog... we had to change the addresswhich you now have or you would not be reading this.

Anyway... To Post Comments to the Blog... Look for the Comments link in green under each posting. CLICK on that to add your comments.

These comments were previously posted:

Jyoti said...
So happy to hear you're out of the hospital. You've been constantly on my mind in my heart during this time. Let's move those blood clots on out girl, so you can come back to Sedona. Much love to both you and Jeff.
March 27, 2009 11:03 AM

Val said...
You have been in my heart & prayers. You are a amazing woman and will conquer this! Love , Valerie Greene
March 28, 2009 3:52 PM

Genevieve said...
You have been in my prayers and I send you lots of good healing energy. I'm happy to hear that you are out of the hospital. Now with your Mom's and the rest of the family's care and healing energies, I know you will get stronger each day.Love, Gen BonoCP Graduate, Feb 2008
March 30, 2009 8:16 PM

marcelline said...
Dear Tanya, much love and healing energy to you fromMarcelline and Mireille. Luckily you know that the body has a very strong intent to heal itself always.
April 1, 2009 12:18 PM

Saturday, April 18, 2009

April 14, 2009 by Titanya

Greetings sweet friends,

I am sitting outside, in my backyard writing this to you. The sun is shining in the mountains of Big Bear and the lake is sparkly blue. This is my 3rd day home, and so far I am doing good, trying to take it easy, keep myself out of homolateral and do my homework from Mom for the blood clots. My Mom is experiencing post partum Tanya depression down in Mexico, but I check in with her a lot to calm her fears.
It is amazing how many myths came out of this one story for me. Of course, I went into the darkness toward death like Innana, whom I know very well. I actually do a one woman story of her journey. Then, there was Demeter and Persephone and the "ever more" bonding that my Mother and I did throughout this incredible story. And then, there is my own myth.
Now, many of you know that I have always wanted children...but you might not know for how long. All my life! When I was young, I took my family of dollies to the zoo, to the movies, and even saved them from snakes. I was born a mother. Dondi, my sister, on the other hand, played with trains, cars and cash registers. I have always known I would be a mother.
I have been trying to have a child for many years, but obstacles were placed in my way... bad relationship choices, a year of intense caretaking with my father, and a huge fibroid surgery with a long recuperation, I had to put it all on hold.
I never knew that fertility drugs were going to be bad for me! I trusted our female fertility doctor. I never knew the dangers...she never told us! I was only trying to get extra help because I was getting older. We realise now that she didn't monitor me with the fertility drugs. When it didn't work the first time, she "upped" the dosage, without monitoring me. We didn't even know I was supposed to get monitored. So, I got a very rare syndrome called Hyper- Ovulation Syndrome, caused by an overdose of hormone stimulants.
So, I want to put everone's mind at ease, because I am getting a lot of letters about adoption and just letting go of this dream I've had, forever. I understand your fears and how much you are conscerned and love me, but there is a bigger myth here. I will try to get pregnant again. I am not going to use fertility drugs or a clinic. I know now that I must balance out my own hormones, dissolve the blood clots and get off of coumadin. So, I will be taking this time in the next few months to do just that. Boy, am I getting an education on hormones! I have so much information for the Woman's class that I teach.
Back to my myth...I've always felt that I died many times in childbirth and I've known that one mission on earth was to heal this body from those past wounds of lifetimes. I feel that this "death journey" (in the past 9 weeks)that I've been on, has healed that feeling and that knowing, on so many different levels. I've always felt, I've always known that I will be pregnant, out of my own body. If I give up on that mission, then I know I will repeat it in the next lifetime. I know some of you are scared for me to try this again, but know, it will be natural. I can't give up on my hope. I can't give up on my faith. If I let go of this dream, this knowing...I will die.

I also feel that what I went through was unfair! I went to 5 hospitals in the course of 6 weeks. At 4 of them, my fertility doctor manipulated the situation to make it look like I didn't have the syndrome, and so the hospitals sent me home, until I almost died at the last one. I am so dismayed at the fertility clinic and the woman whom I trusted. Fertility clinics have no monitoring system; They basically can do whatever they want.
I do not want to feel like a victim in all of this.
We are searching for a good attorney now. The trouble is that they want permanent damage or death in order to make the case strong. Ha! We feel that fertility clinics are so much in the news right now with Octo-mom, that the time is now...please, if you know of someone in California, can you contact me. I do not want this happening to another woman!
Thank you...Love you all! Titanya

1 comment:

  1. Dear Titanya!

    I am sorry that you went through such a terrible experience! I hope you are continuing to improve and feeling better and better with each passing day! I will send some good energy your way!

    I have been watching your Mom's Energy Medicine Basic 5-Day Training and I was so impressed with your demonstration of the Poi balls! In the places where you appear, you seem so vibrant and healthy, so I think you shouldn't worry about being able to bring a child into the world. I have friends who were in their late 30's or early 40's before they had their first ones, so don't worry! I myself had one child at 38 and another at 40. There is still time!

    I will send you lots of good energy, and hope you will post an update to your blog soon!

    All the very best to you!!!